What to blog, OR better yet, To blog or not to blog

I can't say my life is mundane. NOthing is mundane. But i find it hard to blog about anything.. mainly because it seems to me that nobody visits my blog anyway, so why post right?

Wrong. I really should stop valuing others over myself. I should really think about blogging as a way to release all my pent up energy, vibe, good or bad. But when you go and browse over other blogs, it seems that they really have more interesting things to post about than me.

But i shouldn't care nor compare (ooh it rhymes!). So here goes... Thoughts that fill my mind today (April 15).

1. In less than 3 days i will be returning back to Pinas. WHEE!! A month ago, i would've been doing cartwheels on this prospect. But now i'm only doing tiny jumping jacks. Why? Because my brother is coming back with me. I know it sounds selfish, but i really think it would be better for both of us (especially for him) if he was to stay here. Away from temptations, away from making false decisions, and away from making my panties all bunched up! (pardon the expression) So life back in P.I. will be life back to my old routine, minus the work (coz i'm a bum now) and minus the thesis (hooray! hooray!). The cramped up, hot place we have with pollution dust/smog at the tip of your nose (my pimples will be excited to see the daylight again).... argh... Lots of things i would have to work out when i get back.

2. Me taking a vow of silence regarding my brother. Yes, i have finally had it up to my neck (no make it my ears). So far so good, but only because my mom is here. I don't know how this will pan out when we get back... again, me being the 'mother' figure and getting all stressed out for lack of R.E.S.P.E.C.T. Something again that makes me not happy to get home.

3. My cheap, inadequate paint brushes. I can't paint a decent thing!!! Too bad the store in Great world has closed down, so i either need to go to Orchard or Bugis to buy brushes. But with a few days left -- should i bother??! Maybe i should cherish the last few days outside rather than cooping myself up with my paintbrushes and tubes of paints.

4. My hobby, or should i dare say the one w/c i want to make a living of, GOAL is still far away. I can't say im that good, not exhibit-showcasing good but i want to make something out of it. ANd i REALLY want to do a business. Should i ask my friend to help me set up a plan to coerce my mom to give ME a shot, finaly? Yes, me Masters-degree-holding-me wants a chance in the business world. The economics of our world may not be as good as before, but i can't say it will be good in the future, so better start now right?

5. If i calculate the part of me willing to step back to research, i would say it'll be about 25%. I know i need to make a living and start LIVING a productive life but i remember the rat race i've been through and i cringe. I always cringe. I hope something good comes along soon though.

Hmmm...less than five minutes babb...eherm, blogging. I guess i do have some stuff to rant about. And i still have more, but that will be too long so i'll cut it to 5, for today.

Whew! That's a load off my chest.

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